missing friend

I remember very well how my convent brought up affected my starting years of p.u life, I was

just 15 and felt lot hard to cope with students who came from schools which where not well

know or known for  children studying with financial problems,being unaware of true world was

now annoying me,as here i could see everyone looking on to me as problem,unable to speak

local language was great back draw of my life, as I knew only english .The worst part was I

could see discrimination not just between students but also teachers injustice towards

students.I would sit back alone and all good girls were also mere accquiantances as they to

felt reluctant as language was a big barrier which I had hardly assumed in life.The 1st year

did not look just a year but more like a decade,it  was second year that took a turn.
                   when I found a girl who  neither knew the language i spoke nor the

language i knew of her, it was more worse when we both never knew the local language too,the

most best part was when we became best friends,the language developed between us was the

sign language ,it was incredible to believe that sign language could do such wonders ,the

fact it did.During board exam she was too nervous as she said me that her father would take

her to village if she did not perform well,unfortunately  as she could not afford for

tutions it was quite obivious for results to turn bad,as today's teaching is lucrative

one,while i was in my new college she had come to my home,gave her cell number ,i was too

happy to have contact with her once more but all of sudden  one day she happened to

disappear by not picking up cell,i tried a lot for years but found that phone was not

working anymore from telephone office.I still miss remember her a lot for her innocent

questions and her father who was abusive with her and her mother ,this thought terrifies

me,but i shall be waiting for her as well wish her all the best ,may God good wishes always

dwell upon her.I am always thankful for all the love and respect she gave me,respect-which

no one did like her from true heart

rules for life's exam

life is best for those who never give up & i 'm happy to be 1 of them,life  is filled tests ,there is noting to fear,we need to believe in our self ,the most important thing is my academics final exam is approaching therefore once more i need to say I CAN ,it's not over confidence i just have FAITH IN GOD, more on i had a proverb when i was little girl 'faith moves mountains'& faith on God surely does, yes my hard work is important and i will do that no matter at what cost,as long as faith in God & my hard work survives i know i will win over,the 3rd important thing is PATIENCE which is initially difficult but not impossible
 There are some important rules to be followed i.e
1.faith on God
2.understanding your work
3.loving your work
4.hard work
5. patience
6.your act in any situation counts
7.presentation
8.healthy competation
9.valuing people's sentiments
10.no anxiety

Ironical Confusion

It's so hard to believe that people who loved me once now are tired of me,if ever i knew love would make person tired than hardly would i have given my love to theme,when i love i do it to extremes.I 'm the one who is ready to lay down lives but it's unfortunate to note that people scale of love of love come down as we grow up instead of going up, in my life i have kept scale high and the one who loved me is now with God(my darling uncle),Right now all are figuring out wrong  in me and present themselves as crystal perfect,right now this is what happening in my life,all are confused if they have to love me or not but as long as God is present in my life(which God will be) i need not have to worry because here is where my "Belief "lies .
                                                                                                               People are confused when they see my believance as they see me smiling ,first they feel my insane,later my work puts them in confusion,All i say to myself is -i can and i will & need not worry for anything anymore,this confuses people.

sad times yet HOPEFUL

 I don't know when where and how i lost my smiling times,yet people say that i have everything, pushing myself into pillow i CRY and morning oncemore i say i m STRONG. I don't know why i m final victim cause i love everyone a lot and i just don't mind for this,all i wish is all to be happy so my tears don't get waste..........few lines just come out of my mouth

In this 'dark world'
closing my eyes i see a 'pearl'.
I don't know what's on the next step,
but on my journey I have set.
no more do I wish to defend self
as i know GOD'S there always to help!!!
one day tears of eyes,
will surely take me to great heights.

HAVE A GR8 DAY IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY

DAD , you always lived for others,

it's high time about yourself you bother.

thanks for the care u gave bestowed.                                                                                                                 now bless me with your love and faith on me kindly hold.

WORRY never for me- no more i am kid,

grown up girl who can open the toughest lid.

hope you remember the days we played by and never you would let me cry

for all joys and sorrows shared.

today is the right day to cherish memories as well to be enjoyed.

all i need to say u is- HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD. 

LOVE U

Weird ideas of mom

Don't know what has gone wrong in my life

next to me i always see blood swining knife.
the rules layed by "mom"
for that you need to be strong
she says to face life alone

as no one know's what tomorrow holds on

ALL ABOUT BEING A SISTER

RELATIONSHIPS  are so strange that it's too difficult for me to understand,they are  most strange among LOVED ONES,we ourselves never know when we fight ,how we make up and subconciously start loving each other unconditionally!!!
I don't know how many of you would have gone through this weird process but fact if don't face this process,we have missed something in life
Being the eldest daughter and only girl child , i am pet of all. my brother is jealous but at night he loves my sweet kiss,he prefers not to know and if i don't speak he tries his best to make me speak.it's wonderful to be a SISTER and only ONE feels more special,but fight's are not less still i want my brother and cousin brother's in my life always

well finally fine,feel like uploading which shall speak about me-
                                                 this work sounds old
                                              but near to hear i hold.
                                              300 and still going
                                                in search of the most special meaning
relationships are mere joke
but i believe true love is never treated like burger with coke
                                                             i have faith that i shall find my true love
                                                          and my relation will be like peaceful dove.
faithful shall i remain
i trust GOD and so i know more faithful shall my true love be,never giving me pain
                                                                                                                    LOVE-AYESHA MUSKAAN

LIFE

i am these days seriously looking out for peace in my life,i m unable to get it no matter how much i try,my word is always rebellious,i never wished to write negative but i hardly thought that i would be so frustated that i would write this but one good thing is that when i WRITE  my life's problems,i feel a lot relieved,i feel myself on seventh heaven,if i have to come out of my pain there is no other way out for me,it's not just expression but freedom this is just a TRUE INTRODUCTION to my writing cause of pain so now i understand that to GAIN WE NEED TO GO THROUGH PAIN.




                                    TO REACH THE BEAUTIFUL SIGHT AND GAIN HAPPINESS,
                                     WE HAVE TO GO THROUGH PAIN OF ROWING THE BOAT.

NATURE'S MAGIC

Thousand words i wish to write
unfortunately i don't find nothing, in my everyday world so bright;
wish to get back to my lovely nature
as God is my true preacher.
My mind is calm as i step in between trees
perplexed mind becomes tense free.
So much ADVANCEMENT,
missing in the world is ZEST.